Tuesday, June 22, 2021

(I submitted this to CHE last year for their essay section, was turned down. Publishing it here, now.) 


Why I Won’t Teach Online (Again).

 

By

 

Mick Womersley

 

In March our small college, like most others, sent students home and told the faculty to finish out the semester online. And so the faculty taught online. We managed. Most of us. A small minority went under for a while and those students suffered, and, as students do, complained to administrators. But most of us managed the transition, even if not in style. I did it, and didn’t mind it at all, except that I missed my students. I set up a whiteboard, movie camera, and tripod in my spare room to facilitate the operation. I held online help sessions and did a lot of one-on-one coaching. I made movies and annotated slideshows of the material. I wrote lengthy “how-tos” on using the statistical package, or making the right graph in Excel. I enjoyed seeing my students on video chat and in presentations. It was good to know they were for the most part safe and well, if not exactly thriving. I didn’t complain. I just did it. It’s just what good educators do. As far as I know, I didn’t get a single complaint. But lack of complaint does not indicate success in teaching.

            A quick perusal of the time statistics for student engagement from our learning management system illustrates the problem. In a three credit-hour sophomore economics class, required for a major, with five weeks left in the semester, the hardest working students studied the online teaching materials provided for just less than thirty hours. The ones that flunked but still attempted the final exam put in less than three. The average was around twelve. Out of twenty-eight students a couple just dropped out of sight and didn’t even attempt the final. Who knows what was going on in their lives? Whatever it was took priority over making progress to their degrees. And my other sections produced similar results. Most students just didn’t try as hard as they would have if I’d been there to chivy them, if the social aspect of going to class had been there for them, if the routine had been there for them. If it had been face-to-face.

The Carnegie credit-hour system suggests that students need several hours of study outside of class for each “contact hour” in class. The same students in face-to-face learning would have spent fifteen hours in class to finish out the last five weeks of the semester, and been asked to do another thirty or more hours of reading and studying outside of class. Even the best students studied for only half the time they should have. Like most faculty around the country, I don’t get full compliance with Carnegie standards for homework, but students typically report taking many hours to prepare for my exams. I coach the students who have difficulty studying on their own, often putting in hours of back-to-back meetings for this purpose, hoping to make up for years of neglect. In all this, I have to act on the assumption that a kind of rough justice prevails, and look forward to the reflection section on the institutional assessment form where I get to try to decide if I’ve succeeded. I look for “Mick made me think”, or “I thought economics was boring but he made it interesting.” 

But my students, most of whom normally report learning success in economics, wouldn’t learn online. Why not? That seems to be an awfully good question for educators right about now. The Covid crisis forced some of us online. But others went online long before. And they too report success. But is this an apples-to-apples comparison? Are they even the same kind of students? Do they have the same needs? Will society, who is paying or subsidizing their education through Stafford Loans and Pell Grants and other aid, get what it wants out of the bargain?

Like many other schools, ours is making plans to offer more online classes in the fall, opening up some of our formal distance education classes to the students in the conventional face-to-face unit. Previously the two were administratively separate, operating under different calendars with different faculty and students. But our administrators have come up with a “hybrid” model that permits the experiment. They didn’t ask too many of the face-to-face faculty whether or not we thought it a good idea. Perhaps they assumed we wouldn’t like it much. I for one don’t like it at all. I can put up with it in an emergency, but I don’t want it to become a norm. I don’t want to drift unthinkingly into a society that does all its higher education online. I want us to keep face-to-face education wherever we practically can. 

Experience seems to show that these particular students don’t seem to want to learn online. Our administrators like to say that online is “more accessible” and tout success stories from the distance education program – a single mother here, a veteran there, to prove it. But these are not apples-to-apples comparisons. They say that it is cheaper, which is true. Our college charges roughly two thirds of the price for online courses than for face-to-face. Administrators want to save a buck. Who can blame them for that? They are generally judged on budget dollars, not educational success. Online faculty are typically less established, more worried about their jobs, less likely to ask hard questions of harried administrators, less likely to belong to a union, or to make an accreditation board complaint. It’s an easy drift, solves a lot of problems. But it’s not a valid comparison. You are providing a different kind of education, tailored for a different kind of student. And we really need to interrogate the facts here. Does online education work for all students? 

So who are these students of mine that won’t learn online? Ours are mostly first-year, first time students matriculating at age eighteen, direct from high school. A few are older veterans under the Post-9/11 GI Bill. A minority have studied elsewhere but typically not succeeded and hope to do better with us because we promise more help and more experiential programming. Their average household income reported is essentially the same as the nation. But when you get to know them, you realize soon enough that they are almost all from middle-class and working-class families, and a significant proportion are the first in their immediate family to go to college. We are a very white, northern state, and so few of our students have diverse backgrounds, but those who do, often seem to come from better-off families. That makes sense too. If you come from an oppressed minority, it’s hard enough to send your kid to a local college, never mind one that’s out-of-state.

Why might online learning not work with these students? Let’s start with the force field. No-one tells you about this when you start teaching. The average developed world teenager comes with a supernatural force-field around them that inhibits communication from any person older than them. Learning to identify and penetrate this force field at will, on a regular basis, is an a priori requirement to be successful in teaching liberal arts classes. There are many techniques to draw upon: the Socratic question, the slightly controversial remark, the humorous aside, the outgoing body language, the tone of your voice, the ways and means of teaching effectively when all your students wish to be elsewhere, doing other things. You have to make them want to be there. Will they want to be online?

Ask them to read aloud. When they matriculate, and even by the time they make it to my second-year economics courses, our average student reads very slowly, like a robot, unable to put in emphasis of dialect or emotion. I would guess many of yours do too.

Ask them to write. Most cannot complete a paragraph of simple error-free sentences. After the “writing-across-the-curriculum” drive a few years ago, which I took to heart, I coach their writing one-on-one each semester. I get results, but it takes time and effort and individual attention.

Ask them to think, especially about the Good Society and what it should be. This often comes hardest. Young minds are more open than old ones, for sure, but not as much as you’d hope. A significant minority have unadjusted racist and/or other narrow-minded attitudes, probably inherited from their families and the communities they come from. We do our level best to counter this with programming in the residence halls and liberal studies classes from the first semester, but it doesn’t always work, or work right away. 

There are exceptions to this taxonomy of failed education, of course. I get some students who are easy to teach, gliding through my classes, loving each new thought. If you’re one of my students and reading this, and have gotten thus far already, you’re almost certainly in this category. I thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for making my daily task easier and more enjoyable. But if you’re one of these students, you know too that you were in the minority in my classes.

Bottom-line, many if not most of our students do not present ready to study college-level material. I’m sure many of yours don’t either, if you don’t teach at a more exclusive place, and do have students from ordinary American backgrounds, from ordinary American high schools. 

Let’s take these in the order I listed them. If you ask a student who reads at an eighth-grade level to study online, they need to read all their course material online. If it is to be expounded on or explained, that may happen through annotated slides – more reading – and if they are lucky, some video. If they want to ask a question, they may need to type it, and then read the answer. If they are lucky, there will be face-to-face office hours or help sessions via streaming video chat in which they can ask that question. You can add all the concierges – how I dislike that hotel-industry word in the education context – and learning specialists you want. The very fact that they read at such a low reading-grade level means it will take them several hours more to get through the material than a student who is properly prepared for college. In face-to-face programming I’ll discover this, and, usually during a writing or some other coaching session, get them to read their own work out loud, and help them improve. I encourage them to read more, explain that reading is the key to knowledge, adaptability, promotion. Sometimes I even hit home. 

Let’s try writing. If you study for an online degree, most of your grade is going to be for written submissions to exams, quizzes, essays and so on. I expect that there’s also a lot of multiple-choice, auto-graded stuff, but even that needs to be read. If you can’t yet write at a high school level, you’re at a disadvantage. The very few students I see who can diagram a sentence went to private school. Most of my students can’t even read their own sentences out loud without stumbling over their clumsy phraseology. If they have to write out paragraph-length or essay-length answers, they have to be coached, or I have to be capable of inferring from their work that they actually understand the economic theory they are asked to apply. It’s a kind of divination. The cure, the only thing that can make it objective is to bring the student in for coaching. You can improve their writing and understanding of economics at the same time. And, after all, that’s what the punters and the government are paying for.

Last but by no means least, let’s address the critical thinking. This is supposed to be the greatest outcome of a liberal arts degree, students who can think critically, to remake and renew society and make it better in each new generation. That’s why we subsidize higher education. That’s what a government of the people by the people needs to get out of this bargain. 

So, what's the cure for systemic prejudice? How do you change a mind that believes it's made up already, and doesn't wish to change at all? That's been on my mind for years, but especially recently. The only thing I've ever found that worked, even imperfectly, was face-to-face, in-person Socratic classroom or similar informal discussion hosted by a skilled teacher and mentor who has the stage presence and moral authority to guide discussion and testimony, even that which is hard to hear, helping students experience what other people have to say and being guided intellectually and emotionally to put themselves in their shoes. Where have I experienced anything like this? In high school, when I had some very good teachers; in some (not all) Christian churches, and at meetings of other religions; but most frequently in liberal arts classes and related college activities with my students and faculty and teaching staff colleagues for the thirty-two years I've been involved in American education. If you want to live in a better world, you need to change minds. 

A lot of people simply don't change their minds when presented with new, better ideas. But that's what good educators do. We change minds. It's not easy. I wish it was, but it isn't. And it only works some of the time. But what kind of a world would we live in if it had never worked at all, ever, for all of history? We'd all be at each other's throats, sitting on each other's necks, one against one, group against group, clan against clan, nation against nation, for all history, whenever we got the chance. I tell my northeastern students, many of whom are Franco-American, that when the Klan first organized here in the 1920s it was to get rid of them! And now they hang Confederate flags on their dorm room walls! Think about that! This is our fault, the high school and college teachers’, for not educating them better. They need to know that prejudice is wrong because it’s irrational, from the font of all unreason: hatred. They need to be told that they are as dependent on a reasoned society as anyone, if not more so. Mine are not from wealthy homes. They can’t avoid struggle. Just because you think you're in the privileged group now doesn't mean it was always that way, nor will it always be that way. Better start treating people the way you'd like to be treated. And be willing to change your mind. 

So we need to support mind-changing education, which for some students will always need to be face-to-face education, because the system has already failed them, failed to provide them with the skills to learn online. Online school has a place, but probably not for those students who are already underprepared, for students at risk. They need face-to-face instruction, face-to-face encouragement, face-to-face learning, with educators committed to reason and to education. It's our only hope. 

I for one cannot reconcile teaching these particular students online with my professional conscience. It’s not enough. It will fail them. They would be better waiting a semester or two if need be, or learning in person using social distancing, than being isolated online. This would actually work. It would teach them, they would learn, For the most part society has already failed them, and the move online just exacerbates the problem. 

 


 

Friday, June 18, 2021

You don't say...

Tell me again how cheap online courses are the future of higher education and will beat out the competition and diversify the student body (while UMaine invests in free hands-on in person courses specifically to better retain students from demographics that traditionally don't retain well).

https://bangordailynews.com/2021/06/17/news/bangor/new-umaine-program-aims-to-boost-student-retention-through-hands-on-learning/?mc_cid=3aa32a311a&mc_eid=23d95a4618



Wednesday, June 16, 2021

PBS Newshour article on Unity College controversey

They didn't capture the essence of the debate nearly enough. 

I would have done more to highlight the clash between experiential versus remote pedagogy and between the communitarian principles of the old Unity College versus the self-aggrandizing, individualistic capitalism of Our Dear Leader, the self-appointed "savior" of higher education.

And they minimized the angst, shock, and loss of the community. 

But it made prime time, which is something.

I still don't believe they will get away with it in the very long run. The fond memories of the old place run too deeply to be successfully buried, while outside forces like accreditation regimes and competition are too stochastic to be successfully predicted. 

The board must be aware by now that they have critics who have something meaningful to say, something thoughtful and just and deserving of a hearing, about the robbery that has taken place. The Fuhrer tried to paint his critics as behind-the-times ne'er-do-wells, but the fact that the national press is listening to said critics must be disquieting to his bosses, the board. They would probably prefer the quiet life to the place they find themselves, in the churning whirlwind of a Zeitgeist moment for higher education. 

You can sweep all these kinds of awarenesses under the carpet, but only for so long. They tend to nibble at your soul in the wee hours.

Perish the thought! But it doesn't and won't. It will always be there, until the Right Thing gets done, and the correct state of things is restored.

One guy, in search of satisfaction for his own lame ego, chose to ride the tiger. But it's exhausting and it makes you angry, sad, and paranoid. The low grade underlying stress will never end. There will always be another destabilizing crisis just around the corner. Something will eventually give. 

This year's ten-year accreditation review will be one more such stressor. 

And the visiting team is now, thanks to PBS, on full notice about the controversy they are walking into.

Enjoy.

https://www.pbs.org/newshour/show/record-enrollment-at-maine-college-offering-diverse-learning-options-post-pandemic?fbclid=IwAR0H4D5gP5MXgs0jyBBdsMn0GYqarqtny_GISyLuZni0wMFInsnznGHsM5w

Friday, April 30, 2021

The Real Work*

There's a lot of self-serving and specious bloviation originating from the gang of sharp characters that stole our college.

The notion, now that they have hi-jacked the college's good name and accreditation profile to deliver race-to-the-bottom online education, is that this is somehow better.

In particularly, they argue, mostly to potential students and their parents, but also to the governing board, that the college is now more accessible, with more students and more diverse students and that this is better.

Well, no. It's not. And it never will be.

What it is, is different, and it can't easily be compared in order to determine "better" or "worse." Apples to oranges. And it's obviously more commonplace and far less unique, a counterfactual to the nonsense emanating from the corner office, because, well, competition. 

How many online higher education programs will be needed once the Biden administration gets done with its plans to increase Pell Grant, zero out community college tuition, reform the student loan program for four-year schools, add several new avenues for student loan forgiveness, and execute a smart "about turn" on the Title IV "neg reg" that would otherwise have allowed Unity College Online to shop around for an easier accreditor, one that might more easily forgive its many transgressions?

This is a fairly elementary exercise in critical thinking, so much so that I can't believe that someone on the Board hasn't thought it. Probably several have thought it, but haven't said anything. The human being is a frail social animal. Peer pressure is real. Lots of people are not brave enough to actually carry out the responsibilities they sign up for. I expect most of them by now have sat through hours of self-aggrandizing air-time from the administration, Zoomed and PowerPointed to sleepy distraction, caffeinated but dozy, drifting off from time to time, on and on and on, blah, blah, blah, all to justify the abandonment of the mission, the campus, the faculty, the community, the students. 

Some skepticism must have been aroused. But not enough, apparently.

So we'll just have to do their job for them.

Critical Thinking 101. Description, then analysis. First description. Interrogate facts. Put them under a hot light and knock them around a bit. They're just facts. They can't hurt, right?

So, what exactly was the old college in attempted comparison to which the new one is so much "better."

It was lots of things, but most essentially the students. Earlier generations of the Board of Trustees knew this. Many had been such students themselves. I expect right now, anyone with fond memories of the old Quaker Hill is persona non-grata. 

That's a problem in itself, isn't it?

Unity College had a reputation for turning out self-reliant, plucky, feisty, and useful people that could get the job done. Ask any employer why they hired our kids. So how did this happen?

It came in the mix.

And it was a mix. 

(A disclaimer: The order in which our student categories appear is not hierarchical. Or indeed in any kind of structured order. This is just a list in the order in which I thought of it.)

First up, the Golden Girls and Boys. The old college, in any given intake of two-hundred or so mostly eighteen-year old "first-year, first time" college students, served a handful, only twenty or thirty, of gifted and talented environmental studies and environmental science students for whom we had to compete with their respective state flagship and second tier state colleges. Not with Harvard or Yale, for sure. They were gifted but not super-academic. And they didn't have the money or connections to get into the Ivy League. They mostly came from low- to middle-income families. They signed up for the more academic majors, EES, EPLS, SEM, SBE. Or they were the best students in the applied sciences. Even CLE, PFR, and Captive would attract one or two. The best CLE and PFR students were typically "Dudley do-right" Boy Scouts, and leaders of my SAR team. They are park rangers and game wardens now, having been the ones that won the particular game of "Survivor" that is entry to uniformed conservation employment. They are the ones that actually learned the very basic math behind the UTM coordinate system, or that took protection of civil rights to heart. The anti-Chauvins. 

The best Captivers were already mini-zookeepers, with their own menageries, often illegal ensconced in their dorm room. 

They were all truly great students who truly wanted to help save the planet and for the most part are doing so right now in their new careers.

They made my former professorial life wonderful. I mean that. It was full of wonder -- at them. These were the students I lived for. And they are no small legacy. 

After over thirty years in American higher education I'm now allowed to say this: Most professors live for their best learners, less so their middling ones, and certainly not their worst.

I have no fears for the earth, or even for my small daughter's future on it. You see, it wasn't just me doing this work. I had lots of help all over the country and the world. These students, and thousands or even hundreds of thousands like them that were trained up by the environmental movement in global higher education over the last few decades, they will sort it. I have faith in their integrity and capability.

You know who you are. Thank you for returning the faith we placed in you.

My daughter's life and happiness will be in your hands when Aimee and I are gone. But I expect she'll join you in the Real Work.

Next up, the Crusties. A very small minority, one or two of each class at the most, were returning students or older first-timers or veterans on the Post-911 GI bill. These were also great students, but came with more baggage. But they were often very rewarding in return. Having been around life's block a bit, they were happy to have some help in understanding how to go around again, only using a bit more reason this time. 

I could relate. I was twenty-eight when I began college, after seven years in the military and five and a half in military rescue.

Thank you, for all the hard talk and well-earned respect on both sides. Here's a salute from one veteran and non-traditional students to another.

Then the Great Mass, the lumpen proletariat, were b-minus and academically-disengaged students with outdoor or animal-interest lifestyles for whom college was always going to be a chore, who mostly hoped quite desperately to get into outdoor jobs like game warden or wildlife technician or zookeeper just so they could survive lifetime employment somehow. 

Unity offered them a way to survive college, get a degree, and get a shot at one of our trademark outdoor jobs. These students paid our bills. But they were work to teach. They often simply didn't want to learn, especially if it was economics or math or hard science or social studies. They were happy to identify mammals or fish, or go out in the woods on just about any excuse. But take them out of their outdoor identity, out of their comfort zone, and they would try to punish you in return. 

I tried to love them. I still do. I used humor, particularly my grumpy ex-British serviceman's humor, with a slight snark, but no small empathy for their predicament. 

It's hard, truly hard, isn't it, to want to get paid to go hunting or to pet fuzzy animals. That's the only thing you want out of life. That and a toke or a beer or a big truck and a hot boyfriend or girlfriend or all of these. I can empathize. 

But before you can even get a shot at the game warden exam or get that internship at the zoo, you have to pass economics? Do algebra? Learn climate change? Write a grammatically correct sentence?

I felt their pain. I still do. Poor kittens.

So, when so challenged, which was daily, I gave as good as I got. I did my job, taught them econ or climate or math or grammar, the hard way, often one on one, until they hated me more, until they gave up and realized there was only one way out, the honest work they didn't want to do in the first place at the beginning of the semester, and I took their money quite honestly, having earned it very well, with the sweat of my furrowed brow, and paid my bills and made my way, got married, bought a house, made a farm, had a kid. About half to two-thirds or more of these types became decent human beings of whom I am proud. 

And, I should say in their defense, an awful lot of these folks were interested in Hahnian Rescue Service and were on my SAR team or the fire department or ambulance.

Thank you, all the same. I still have hope that you'll see, one day, that climate change is real, that economics and politics are important, that your life won't get better until you decide to put your shoulder to the wheel of civilization like a real person and give it a push. But in the meantime, you helped keep me honest and straightforward and grumpy, and let me pay my way and raise our kid. So thanks for that. And the house and farm and kid, the light of my life. You made all that possible.

And keep up the good work. Even if you're still a climate denier, Rescue Service is important. We have that in common, still. 

Even if you still can't and won't learn how to parse the math in geographical coordinates. Honestly, how can you want to be a game warden and be unwilling to learn this? Really, dude? How do you think the computer search mapping system works? Magic?

And the Board? What, you didn't know that Kurt Hahn's principles included Rescue Service? What the fuck did you think I was doing, playing soldiers? Or Expeditions? Or Projects? Look it up, for chrissakes. Do your job.

Where's your Unity Fire Department, your Unity Ambulance, your SAR team now? Online?

Then the Specials. At the very bottom, academically-speaking, but often high in our esteem, were a category of students who had grave learning disabilities for whom very little worked except one-on-one attention. We teachers and academic staff poured our hearts and souls into some of these, and the more deserving cases kept us up nights with worry. We loved them all, but most of all we loved the ones who fought to overcome their difficulties.

I wonder how easy it is for them now, to get the attention they need from that overworked online adjunct.

Back to the mix. The Thugs: Some students, a small minority, became dishonest. They would lie, cheat and steal just to get out of an assignment and go hike or fish or hunt. Some, generally the same ones, were unpleasant and derisive. 

As Interim Provost for a couple years, I had to deal with these types in disciplinary cases. I once had to intervene with a huge hulk of a con law student who tried to bully a seventy-year old English Comp adjunct with a blue rinse into giving him a better grade for an assignment he'd "borrowed" from a friend. She ran out of the classroom in tears. I wanted to fire him, but the president intervened. But this was perhaps the worst of it. The thugs were few and far between. And I'm proud of everything we attempted to deter their behavior and teach them better ways. But you couldn't pay me enough to ever go back to this part of the job. I'm glad to be done with them.

So no thanks to you. Can't win 'em all. I hope you stay out of trouble and don't hurt anyone. But since I already saw you hurt people, with words or otherwise, I can't be sure of that. I tried to teach you otherwise. 

But hurters are going to hurt until they find a way to change. And real education is a contact sport, despite what the proponents of distance learning have to say about it. Really deep personal change doesn't come easily, or online. It comes from personal contact, social encounters with people of different viewpoints whose feed you can't power down just because it makes you uncomfortable.

I have the scars, mental and otherwise, to prove it.

Actually, it was Tim Peabody, former Colonel of the Maine Wardens Service and Unity College professor, who taught me this. 

Abusers keep abusing. they can't stop. Thugs keep thugging along.

Finally, the Weird Ones. And they won't be mad at me for calling them that. They wore their weirdness on their sleeves, a badge of honor. I am weird too, in some ways, so I could relate. 

But across the above board, there were an awful lot of kids for whom the college was simply a refuge to grow up and explore. Gay, lesbian and transgendered kids found a safe home there, as did a good few disabled kinds, although the able-bodied mainstream moved on as fast as ever in their outdoor lifestyles, sometimes including, sometimes not. A lot of teachable moments were developed helping the conforming and able to be tolerant and including of the nonconforming or disabled.

I could tell stories for hours about working with all these kinds of students.

The best way to teach all these, but especially the Great Mass, was experientially. We employed Kurt Hahn's expeditionary learning principles throughout the college in one form or another. The present establishment is wholly ignorant of this theory, a sad remark on their lack of professionalism. They thought we were the unprofessional ones because we wanted to teach experientially, which is of course sometimes expensive. I got very tired of being nickel-and-dimed by so-called professional administrators, mostly pointy-headed sycophants and yes-men and -women, who thought that classroom materials were optional expenses. In the end I just bought my own, to the tune of thousands of dollars. 

That shiny kit in the sustainability lab? I paid for much of that. 

But this was key to engagement. And we were the experts. I've been using Kurt Hahn's principles in education since 1980. Other UC faculty had even longer pedigrees in experiential environmental education. If you want evidence, just read through my blog, and look at all the projects we did together. 

This expertise was, of course threatening, and so to remove the threat the pointy-heads disavowed the theory, in most cases before they even bothered to examine it. On their meteoric rise up the academic career ladder, this was information they didn't want or need.

But it works. It's tested scientifically. Sometimes, as in the lumpen cases above, it's the only thing that works at all! The promise of experiential education in recruitment meant we could make a class. Using experiential education helped us deliver on that promise to help make the students into decent and useful people. Without it, all the pointy-heads and sycophants would have been out of a job.

So I'm proud of all the educating we did at the old Unity. It was a good way to spend twenty years of my life. I'm proud of every grumpy vet that graduated, proud of every game warden I taught to read maps or to think about civil rights, every mixed-up queer kid that cried in my office but eventually found a safe place to be and sort it out, every trans kid that found a place to change into their new life, every disabled kid that loves the woods, every one of you that tried to learn.

The bright kids, older students, and veterans were a particular joy to teach. I count it as one of the great honors of my life that the Student Veterans' Association chapter chose me to be their advisor. 

But by and large most, a very large majority of all the types of student we had made progress. They learned. They changed. Often they learned and changed a lot. There was a lot of value added.

So back to analysis. Critical Thinking 101. One plus one is two. Two plus two is four. A and B. OK?

A. More isn't better. Deeper is. You'll not save the planet with shallow change.

B. We were diverse. 

Got it? (Boy, that was hard!) 

Let's do B first: Diversity. We had kids from trailer parks and kids from mac-mansions, kids with rusty jalopies and kids with BMWs and Mercs, grumpy old vets with PTSD would sit next to radical lesbians and somehow, mostly, get on with them and even become friends in a grudging but real kind of way. The great majority of our students were the first in their families to go to college. We had black, brown, Asian, gay, and trans kids, and a heck of a lot of white kids who could barely afford to do college. Not enough kids of color, for sure, but they all came and learned and somehow found an on-ramp to a life working for the environment. We made an inclusive community of all these folks. 

I particularly knew all about the students who could only afford beater cars because I was the one that helped keep them on the road!

It was in the rubbing together of this community, where all the corners got scuffed, in Hahnian Expeditions, Projects, and Rescue Service, that the Real Work happened. The classroom time was just a backdrop. 

The real work requires real people who are willing to get real.

The new carpet-bagging administrators, the pointy-heads, didn't care much for this weird and wonderful community because, in their offices and meetings, on their phones, and in their shiny cars, they weren't part of it. And they couldn't analyze it on a cost basis to make it somehow more efficient. It was all a kind of mystery to them. They lacked a faculty to evaluate it, or even, in the worst cases, to even know it existed. So, they were often quite disparaging or discouraging of our efforts to make this community, and especially our requests for travel, tools, equipment, lab time, facilities, and, most of all, real leadership. It was all somehow too messy, too weird, too eccentric, too non-mainstream, too environmental, and, above all, too different for them. 

Eccentricity is not commonly encountered among those who wish to climb the ladder. A kind of bland inoffensiveness is required. Dress the dress, walk the walk, talk the talk. Bore the bore. Worry about the planet? Hope for social change? That's not my problem. I'm on my way up.

Until it is. Until what is needed is a different outlook, a willingness to commit, a new idea, something different...

A few memes: January 6th. Derek Chauvin. Climate change. The biodiversity crisis. On and on. 

I tend to think that convention and peer pressure and superficiality is pleasing to these kinds of people while the essential disorder that comes along with a teachable moment is not. 

They certainly didn't have the kids in and out of their offices all day with their worries and cares. No poverty-stricken or gay or trans kid was ever going to ask them how to grow up without dying. 

Yes, that's right, you bullshitting morons on the Board. It's life or death for weird kids. Haven't you heard about youth suicide? 

There were two youth suicides among the Unity College community under the recent administration? Did you know that? Was that ever the subject of a PowerPoint? How many do you think my colleagues and I helped avert, with our "unprofessional" empathy?

On dozens of occasions I had these kids in my office crying their eyes out and complaining of the treatment they were getting from the corner office that looks out on Quaker Hill. Every time a student stuck their head above the parapet and tried by themselves or in a group to make the college more sustainable, more progressive, more inclusive, they met with approbation from that corner.

That is perhaps the worst indictment of all. That when the students tried to actually live the mission, they were discouraged, or even, in the worst cases, formally disciplined.

Back to A. Depth is as important or more so than width. And real education is a contact sport. 

The students didn't always go along with our living learning Hahnian utopia, of course. But it was a safe place for a lot of people to learn.

So the notion that the current college is somehow better in comparison with the old because there are A) more students and B) more diverse students is simply not true. The new college is different. But not better. The old college was good, even very good: at teaching, at being a safe place to grow up in, at being a very diverse community. At using experiential learning. At being a real living-learning community. At training leaders to save the planet.

It was not just good, but unique.

The new college may have attracted larger numbers of quite diverse students to take a few credits each, all working in their very limited spare time from work or family, without experiential learning, without immersion, without having to rub up against their peers except in chat rooms that can easily be ignored or minimized without grade penalty, all taught by badly-paid, poorly qualified adjuncts working only over the computer and nary a project or field trip. 

But this isn't better. It's shallow. And I would guess that far fewer actual credit hours are taken per year by each student. Because the old community-based program went deeper and grew more change in individuals, there may even have been more education getting brewed up compared to the inches-deep mild mix they serve today.

And in teaching these larger numbers with so shallow a system, I'm afraid, the new college will have to compete with every other online program that does much the same.

Just because it has more faces of color doesn't make it more diverse, if those faces are more conforming, less challenging of authority, less likely to save the planet (even if just by sheer ornery-ness), less likely to fulfill the mission.

Less likely to save the planet.

And so, without that community, without really that mission, the college is no longer unique either. 

And the old campus, where all these lessons began in a safe beautiful place in the Maine woods with a view of the mountains, is now empty and sad and disused, when it should be getting cleaned and priced up and made ready for a new intake

So, tell me again how this is better.


Note: The title of this essay, "The Real Work," is a phrase coined by environmental poet Gary Snyder to describe the personal growth needed to successfully connect to the natural environment. 

By extension, it is the Work we need to do to save the planet. It encapsulates the mission of the old Unity College and my own continuing vocation.

Sunday, March 7, 2021

Rise Again #2

 


The Mary Ellen Carter

She went down last October in a pouring driving rain.
The skipper, he’d been drinking and the Mate, he felt no pain.
Too close to Three Mile Rock, and she was dealt her mortal blow,
And the Mary Ellen Carter settled low.

There were just us five aboard her when she finally was awash.
We’d worked like hell to save her, all heedless of the cost.
And the groan she gave as she went down, it caused us to proclaim
That the Mary Ellen Carter would rise again.

Well, the owners wrote her off; not a nickel would they spend.
“She gave twenty years of service, boys, then met her sorry end.
But insurance paid the loss to us, so let her rest below.”
Then they laughed at us and said we had to go.

But we talked of her all winter, some days around the clock,
She’s worth a quarter million, afloat and at the dock.
And with every jar that hit the bar, we swore we would remain
And make the Mary Ellen Carter rise again.

Rise again, rise again, that her name not be lost

To the knowledge of men.
Those who loved her best and were with her till the end
Will make the Mary Ellen Carter rise again.

All spring, now, we’ve been with her on a barge lent by a friend.
Three dives a day in hard hat suit and twice I’ve had the bends.
Thank God it’s only sixty feet and the currents here are slow
Or I’d never have the strength to go below.

But we’ve patched her rents, stopped her vents, dogged hatch and porthole down.
Put cables to her, ‘fore and aft and girded her around.
Tomorrow, noon, we hit the air and then take up the strain.
And make the Mary Ellen Carter Rise Again.

For we couldn’t leave her there, you see, to crumble into scale.
She’d saved our lives so many times, living through the gale
And the laughing, drunken rats who left her to a sorry grave
They won’t be laughing in another day. . .

And you, to whom adversity has dealt the final blow
With smiling bastards lying to you everywhere you go
Turn to, and put out all your strength of arm and heart and brain
And like the Mary Ellen Carter, rise again.

Rise again, rise again – though your heart it be broken
And life about to end
No matter what you’ve lost, be it a home, a love, a friend.
Like the Mary Ellen Carter, rise again.

Rise Again

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Thursday, February 18, 2021

Tilting at Windmills, and other Texan bloodsports

A large amount of nonsense being talked by opponents of green power because of the Texas outages. Solar PV works quite well even in Maine's winter because PV cells like winter weather. There's less internal electrical resistance when it's cool, and the snow we have on the ground most of the winter reflects light up to the array. Ours is deliberately tilted to shed the snow quickly. It's been running flat-out since the sun hit it square on about 9.30am. Wind turbines are similarly at full blast today in Maine because of the strong polar wind we have, and because we employ anti-icing systems that Texas chose not to pay for. Here's the power produced by the solar array on our barn the last week. You can see that some power was produced on even the snowstorm days, while the array was at peak output for four of the seven days. Each kilowatt hour saves us 18¢. The array cost $3,500 after the federal tax rebate, although it was cheaper because we did much of the work ourselves, with the help of some students that wanted work experience (they were paid!), and the local solar PV company who helped with the paperwork. It's made 80 KWh in the last week, so that would be $14 in power for the week, or about $60/month. I don't know of any other investment that will safely give you $60/month for only $3,500 upfront. Nothing legal, that's for sure. And it will make even more in summer, zeroing out our bill entirely some months. CMP fought us tooth and nail on this installation, and we had to take them to the PUC. But it's been worth every penny. My only regret is that it needs no attention, so I don't get to tinker with it! It's totally boring how reliable it is. But I do have a 1975 VW bus for that. And It's quite toasty in our house today running on solar PV and wood stove heat. I feel sorry for all the Texans without power, but let's put the blame where it belongs, with their pay-to-play politicians and their cheap-assed power companies.